Saturday, March 31, 2007
I can not really think of anything to talk about for this post. I actually got a chance to simply relax today and not have to run around doing things. I should probably be putting together everything I need in order to be admitted into the Education Department of Spelman College. The confusion in the department seriously bothers me. Sometimes I really think to myself "if I wouldn't be at Spelman for another year or so, I would just leave this major." It is sad to me that the organization of the department truly has affected the way I think about my desired profession. So many of my colleagues feel this same way as well. We get information that changes ALL of the time and we have these meeting that end up getting us no where because of it. My fellow class of 09ers were told that we were not to apply to the department until the SPRING semester of our SOPHOMORE year. Now we are being told that we were supposed to have turned one in last semester and that we should now be signing up for an interview to be admitted into the department. They don't have a deadline for applications but I personally think that one would seriously help...people wouldn't be loafing around with their applications. I think that it would have been dumb to fill out an application to get into the department last semester any way to be honest because many of us only knew two professors in the department but did not know them necessarily well enough to get them to fill out a recommendation form for admittance into the program. I get very frustrated when I think about this situation therefore I am going to stop right now...TTYL!!
Monday, March 26, 2007
I'm just never on time *SMILE*
I need to get better at this! I can't seem to remember to post every Sunday lol! Nothing new has really happened to me in the past week that was life changing. I am feeling better about my life and the people around me, I guess that that is a good thing. My Godson Jae'den turned 7 months old on 3/24/07. That is a milestone because he is so young at the moment! I cannot wait until I see him and he is walking!!! Every time I call his mother, I think he gets a tad bit jealous that all of her attention is not on him so he will start babbling louder and louder like he is joining in on the conversation lol! I think that he really is trying to mimic his mother's words. I think that it is quite cute.
I commend my friend because I do not think that I could raise a child at this point in my life. I am too selfish to do so. There are too many things that I want to do with my life before I have to take care of another person or having them depend on me. I love that little boy to death but when he cries, he CRIES and some times there is nothing that you can do to make him stop other than give him back to his mother. I would be kind of annoyed with that if I were a mother now to be honest. It may sound horrible but that is how I feel right now.
I don't want a child right now but I do want one in the future, when I am mature enough for one. If I really HAD to be a mother right now I believe that I could manage but I don't want to simply manage with my children, I want them to have everything that I can give them and more. My parents and grandparents made sure that their children had everything they needed and more and I want to do that for my children as well!
I commend my friend because I do not think that I could raise a child at this point in my life. I am too selfish to do so. There are too many things that I want to do with my life before I have to take care of another person or having them depend on me. I love that little boy to death but when he cries, he CRIES and some times there is nothing that you can do to make him stop other than give him back to his mother. I would be kind of annoyed with that if I were a mother now to be honest. It may sound horrible but that is how I feel right now.
I don't want a child right now but I do want one in the future, when I am mature enough for one. If I really HAD to be a mother right now I believe that I could manage but I don't want to simply manage with my children, I want them to have everything that I can give them and more. My parents and grandparents made sure that their children had everything they needed and more and I want to do that for my children as well!
Monday, March 19, 2007
A day late!
I am glad that I am in this class and that we do this. I've tried to keep a diary over the years but it never seems to stick. you wouldn't believe the amount of journals I have from the past that aren't quite filled. I've been going through the process of getting my life together recently. I don't feel like I have a handle on things as much as I should. I am frustrated with the end of my relationship with my boyfriends still and school work. I feel like I should be able to let go of things and I don't. I say that I am going to stop doing things but I never do. I watched the Secret and it was pretty good. I feel like I am in your class also for a purpose other than having to take it as a requirement. Even though it may not always appear this way, I listen to the advice that you give and internalize it. I am working towards inner peace at the moment and the positive affirmations and breathing exercises help center my day. I used to meditate and do breathing exercises when I was younger. That may sound funny but we did it before every session of any of my dance classes so that our thoughts would be together.
I am going to start meditating and breathing when I wake up in the morning. I am going to start DOING instead of just SAYING that I am going to do things to better my life. I am tired of feeling sad or hopeless, I am a wonderful and caring individual that deserves the best and I am not going to stop until I get that.
I am glad that I am in this class and that we do this. I've tried to keep a diary over the years but it never seems to stick. you wouldn't believe the amount of journals I have from the past that aren't quite filled. I've been going through the process of getting my life together recently. I don't feel like I have a handle on things as much as I should. I am frustrated with the end of my relationship with my boyfriends still and school work. I feel like I should be able to let go of things and I don't. I say that I am going to stop doing things but I never do. I watched the Secret and it was pretty good. I feel like I am in your class also for a purpose other than having to take it as a requirement. Even though it may not always appear this way, I listen to the advice that you give and internalize it. I am working towards inner peace at the moment and the positive affirmations and breathing exercises help center my day. I used to meditate and do breathing exercises when I was younger. That may sound funny but we did it before every session of any of my dance classes so that our thoughts would be together.
I am going to start meditating and breathing when I wake up in the morning. I am going to start DOING instead of just SAYING that I am going to do things to better my life. I am tired of feeling sad or hopeless, I am a wonderful and caring individual that deserves the best and I am not going to stop until I get that.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
So I missed last weeks blog! With the excitement of being home for a while I completely forgot about it. Being on break isn't an excuse but I did an extra one last month or so, so I think I will let myself slide on forgetting last Sunday lol! Lets see soooo much has happened to me during spring break! I got to spend a lot of time with my family and some of my friends. I went through some bad things over break but there were so many good things that came of them that I can't really call them bad.
When I got home on Saturday, I went straight to the movies to see Daddy's Little Girls with my sisters and mom. We went out to dinner afterwards and I had some really good eggplant parmigiana mmmm! On Sunday my Auntie Ermie came to visit me. I don't get to see her as much as I did when I was younger because she doesn't drive anymore so she has to wait for people to bring her places. My other Aunts also came over for a while. In the evening I went to see my friend Ma'Lesha and my god son Jae'den! I love that little boy he's only 6 months old but he is so full of life and energy! On Monday I had to go to the DUN DUN DUN...dentist! I got my cavities, YES more than one, filled. It actually wasn't so bad however because they were both very shallow so I didn't even have to have any Novocaine or laughing gas.
On Tuesday I had to go back to the dentist so have a consultation about getting my wisdom teeth removed. Only one of my three came in but that one tooth is such a bother sometimes! I'm going to get them taken out in May when school is over. I also went to see Daddy's Little Girls again with two of my friends. I didn't mind it because I got to spend sometime with them but it also didn't hurt that my friend Damian paid for us all to go lol! On Wednesday, I went to see our school's Glee Club perform at my best friend's church. My best friend sings in the Glee Club and they were on tour and instead of performing at this theater at home like they did last year, they thought it would be nice to perform at her family's church to make it a more accessible event for the community. They were so good that they gave me goosebumps when they sang some of their songs!
On Thursday I spent sometime with my little sister and watched CSI! Sadly that night my cousin called me to tell me that my other cousin's ex boyfriend had been murdered. He had been missing since that Tuesday and they found his body on Thursday. It was hard for me to grasp because he was SOOO nice and I had to go to another funeral for my great aunt that coming Saturday. From his passing, I could only think of the people that I had recently had arguments with. My cousin her ex hadn't been speaking so much prior to is death because of differences that they had but now he's gone and they cannot reconcile. I don't want that to happen to me or anyone I love or care for so I plan on treating people with respect and love. I am not saying that I will let people walk all over me but I will definitely try not to hold on to anger the way I do. It takes sooo much more of my energy to be angry or upset with someone than it does to just say "hey it's ok."
I decided not to go to my great aunt's funeral which my parents understood...I kind of feel bad about it now even though I didn't know her very well but I got to spend a little more time with my friends and my younger sister. I ended up going to a not so nice fashion show and a not so fun party with my friends lol! It was only ok because I was with them however, if I were alone it would have been AWFUL!!! We have come to the conclusion that we will only count on spending our money on going out to eat because that is the only time we aren't disappointed with spending our money! All in all my spring break was fun but I plan on going to a BEACH next spring break!
When I got home on Saturday, I went straight to the movies to see Daddy's Little Girls with my sisters and mom. We went out to dinner afterwards and I had some really good eggplant parmigiana mmmm! On Sunday my Auntie Ermie came to visit me. I don't get to see her as much as I did when I was younger because she doesn't drive anymore so she has to wait for people to bring her places. My other Aunts also came over for a while. In the evening I went to see my friend Ma'Lesha and my god son Jae'den! I love that little boy he's only 6 months old but he is so full of life and energy! On Monday I had to go to the DUN DUN DUN...dentist! I got my cavities, YES more than one, filled. It actually wasn't so bad however because they were both very shallow so I didn't even have to have any Novocaine or laughing gas.
On Tuesday I had to go back to the dentist so have a consultation about getting my wisdom teeth removed. Only one of my three came in but that one tooth is such a bother sometimes! I'm going to get them taken out in May when school is over. I also went to see Daddy's Little Girls again with two of my friends. I didn't mind it because I got to spend sometime with them but it also didn't hurt that my friend Damian paid for us all to go lol! On Wednesday, I went to see our school's Glee Club perform at my best friend's church. My best friend sings in the Glee Club and they were on tour and instead of performing at this theater at home like they did last year, they thought it would be nice to perform at her family's church to make it a more accessible event for the community. They were so good that they gave me goosebumps when they sang some of their songs!
On Thursday I spent sometime with my little sister and watched CSI! Sadly that night my cousin called me to tell me that my other cousin's ex boyfriend had been murdered. He had been missing since that Tuesday and they found his body on Thursday. It was hard for me to grasp because he was SOOO nice and I had to go to another funeral for my great aunt that coming Saturday. From his passing, I could only think of the people that I had recently had arguments with. My cousin her ex hadn't been speaking so much prior to is death because of differences that they had but now he's gone and they cannot reconcile. I don't want that to happen to me or anyone I love or care for so I plan on treating people with respect and love. I am not saying that I will let people walk all over me but I will definitely try not to hold on to anger the way I do. It takes sooo much more of my energy to be angry or upset with someone than it does to just say "hey it's ok."
I decided not to go to my great aunt's funeral which my parents understood...I kind of feel bad about it now even though I didn't know her very well but I got to spend a little more time with my friends and my younger sister. I ended up going to a not so nice fashion show and a not so fun party with my friends lol! It was only ok because I was with them however, if I were alone it would have been AWFUL!!! We have come to the conclusion that we will only count on spending our money on going out to eat because that is the only time we aren't disappointed with spending our money! All in all my spring break was fun but I plan on going to a BEACH next spring break!
Sunday, February 25, 2007
School work and such...
Ahhh midterms are coming!
I don't think that I am really nervous about them I just dislike taking test sometimes. I used to hate taking standardized test like the SAT or the Connecticut State Mastery Test before I was in college. Time constraints make me feel overwhelmed sometimes. I had to get over that my first semester of college however. I was having some trouble in my french course. I was making simple mistakes on information that I knew well. I was doing this because of how nervous I was to get at least a 3.0 to keep my scholarship. Even though getting a 3.0 wasn't something that was really hard to achieve, I was sooo worried about not getting at least a 3.0 that i wasn't focusing myself correctly. I wasn't studying properly, staying up for hours trying to remember information and not taking the appropriate breaks that my brain needed to actually work correctly during the test.
Knowing this about MYSELF, I feel as though I will be more prepared to help my students with test taking strategies. I know that you need to take breaks during studying periods so that your brain can actually retain information. Simply re-reading the chapter does not always mean that you understand the information that you are reading so discussing the information with a classmate or, if you work better alone, taking notes on your reading to make sure you can explain the information for yourself are good ways to make sure you understand course material. Getting enough rest before an exam is also key! There is nothing worse than going into a long test or any test for that matter, TIRED!
~ChelsC.
I don't think that I am really nervous about them I just dislike taking test sometimes. I used to hate taking standardized test like the SAT or the Connecticut State Mastery Test before I was in college. Time constraints make me feel overwhelmed sometimes. I had to get over that my first semester of college however. I was having some trouble in my french course. I was making simple mistakes on information that I knew well. I was doing this because of how nervous I was to get at least a 3.0 to keep my scholarship. Even though getting a 3.0 wasn't something that was really hard to achieve, I was sooo worried about not getting at least a 3.0 that i wasn't focusing myself correctly. I wasn't studying properly, staying up for hours trying to remember information and not taking the appropriate breaks that my brain needed to actually work correctly during the test.
Knowing this about MYSELF, I feel as though I will be more prepared to help my students with test taking strategies. I know that you need to take breaks during studying periods so that your brain can actually retain information. Simply re-reading the chapter does not always mean that you understand the information that you are reading so discussing the information with a classmate or, if you work better alone, taking notes on your reading to make sure you can explain the information for yourself are good ways to make sure you understand course material. Getting enough rest before an exam is also key! There is nothing worse than going into a long test or any test for that matter, TIRED!
~ChelsC.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
2-18-07
WHAT A WEEK!! Where do I begin? Lets see....I had the feeling that my week was going to be pretty good but I wasn't sure of how good it was going to be. On Monday one of my classes was cancelled so I only had three of my four usual classes. I had two tests on Monday as well. I felt confident about knowing the information on the tests so I wasn't really worried about them. On Tuesday I only had my public speaking class and my music class since your class was cancelled. We were giving presentations on the meanings of our names in public speaking but I didn't get a chance to present yet...I will do so this coming Tuesday however. I am both nervous and excited! I HATE speaking in front of my peers but I am also excited about sharing the meaning of the names I was given with everyone.
I was supposed to meet with my group for you class on Tuesday but I guess the message got lost in translation because only one person showed up. We still discussed what our project could be about though and rescheduled the meeting for Thursday so that everyone would be there. Wednesday was valentine's day. I didn't do anything special seeing as how I am no longer in a relationship with anyone but I did share some fun time with my good friends here at school.
On Thursday I only had one class!! It felt soo nice lol! I met with my group for you class around 1:30 and then continued to study for my music test. I thought I had studied enough until I got to the test and didn't think I could answer the first question. It really started to get to me even thought I knew the answers to the other questions, not knowing the answer to the first question made me feel like I was going to do poorly on the rest of the exam. Then I just sat back and relaxed and the answer came to me (I know it was the answer because after the test I looked over my notes and I saw that I had it right). Relaxing is somewhat difficult for me at times. I have the tendency to worry about EVERYTHING even things that I have no control over. I think that it is because I care about others so much. I think that it is a good thing to care about other people however, I need to create a line and remember not to cross it when it comes to caring for others and not caring enough for myself.
On Friday I also only had one class at 9:00 in the morning! The rest of my day was for relaxation. I hung out with my friends and caught up on some rest. On Saturday I did some work and got to go out to a party. I haven't been out in a while so it was nice to get to do so. Today is now Sunday and it is my friend Charlotte's 20th birthday! We are going out to dinner tonight so I am trying to get all of my work done so that I can just come back to my room and go to sleep to get ready for classes tomorrow morning! That is how my week went...nothing missing!
-ChelsC.
I was supposed to meet with my group for you class on Tuesday but I guess the message got lost in translation because only one person showed up. We still discussed what our project could be about though and rescheduled the meeting for Thursday so that everyone would be there. Wednesday was valentine's day. I didn't do anything special seeing as how I am no longer in a relationship with anyone but I did share some fun time with my good friends here at school.
On Thursday I only had one class!! It felt soo nice lol! I met with my group for you class around 1:30 and then continued to study for my music test. I thought I had studied enough until I got to the test and didn't think I could answer the first question. It really started to get to me even thought I knew the answers to the other questions, not knowing the answer to the first question made me feel like I was going to do poorly on the rest of the exam. Then I just sat back and relaxed and the answer came to me (I know it was the answer because after the test I looked over my notes and I saw that I had it right). Relaxing is somewhat difficult for me at times. I have the tendency to worry about EVERYTHING even things that I have no control over. I think that it is because I care about others so much. I think that it is a good thing to care about other people however, I need to create a line and remember not to cross it when it comes to caring for others and not caring enough for myself.
On Friday I also only had one class at 9:00 in the morning! The rest of my day was for relaxation. I hung out with my friends and caught up on some rest. On Saturday I did some work and got to go out to a party. I haven't been out in a while so it was nice to get to do so. Today is now Sunday and it is my friend Charlotte's 20th birthday! We are going out to dinner tonight so I am trying to get all of my work done so that I can just come back to my room and go to sleep to get ready for classes tomorrow morning! That is how my week went...nothing missing!
-ChelsC.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Catching Up...
I wasn't sure if I was supposed to write a blog for this Sunday or next so I decided to do one for both. I would rather have done an extra assignment for no reason than lose credit for not remembering. Lets see...nothing really interesting has happened to me since Thursday's class. I went to Club Delta on Friday evening and I got my hair done on Saturday morning. Sadly those are the highlights of my weekend! I don't have a car so I had to take a cab to the hair salon and spend extra money which is always a bother. I think I need to read the next chapter for this class but since we don't have class until the 20th I might wait to do it on the 17th or something. If I wait until then the chapter will be fresh in my mind. I still have to finish my survey on surveymonkey.com. That's what i will do, I am going to finish my survey tonight!
~ChelsC.
~ChelsC.
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